Tuesday, October 20, 2009

So Sad

Beautiful Laura


A week ago today we found out that Ben's little sister, Laura, ended her own life. She had been struggling with a deep and devastating depression for many years. She tried so hard to survive. I feel so sad that this seemed like the best solution to her. I'm sad that I didn't understand the extent to how bad it was while she was alive. I'm sad that she won't be there to do the makeup and the hair of my girls for prom, because heaven knows I do not have talents there. I will miss her laugh and her quick whit. I am grateful that when she really had nothing to give, she still gave to my girls, because they love their aunt Laura and miss her terribly. That even when things were so bad, she would come babysit, build forts, do fingernails, make smores for them. My daughters have the best memories of their aunt Laura and I am so grateful for that. I will miss our deep conversations about life. I will miss the emotion that she was able to pour into a piano. I will miss her.


Ben and Laura (Laura figured out how to play the accordion that Ben got for free on craigslist)


Laura with Yvette on Ben's birthday


Laura snuggling with the girls


Autumn and Laura


Autumn and Laura


Laura and Autumn reading books together


Laura with Prairie


Prairie and Laura on Prairie's first birthday


Prairie and Laura


Laura and Zephyr (the only day I have pictures of Laura and Zephyr together)


Laura and Prairie


Emily and Laura

14 comments:

mandy said...

I am so sorry. What a hard time for your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Renshaw Family said...

I am so sorry. We are all thinking of your family at this time.

Ariana said...

I am so sorry to hear. Our prayers are with you.

Cafe Johnsonia said...

Oh, dear. That is terrible news. I, too, am so very sorry for your loss. What a darling girl. You are in my prayers.

Max and Deanna said...

I'm so sorry for your family. Your post was a nice tribute to her memory. May the Lord's comfort be with all of you at this sad time.

Dee Oviatt said...

Emily, thanks for the photos. We are devastated and are desparately trying to hold onto the good memories. These reminders help a lot. ~Poopa

Ami, Joel, and Dane said...

I feel so sad for you and your family. I'm sure it's hard for all of you, but I hope Ben is hanging in there all right. What a sad loss.

Ed & Natasha said...

Not Laura - that is so sad. She was always so happy and sweet to everyone - I'm in total shock, I can't imagine how you all must feel. Ben, please tell your family how sorry I am for your loss and my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Tasha (Barber) Watson

C, J, and T said...

We are so sorry to hear that. We are praying for all of you! We love you!

Megan said...

I was so sorry to hear about your sister. Please know that your family is in my thoughts and prayers, and if you need anything, my number is still the same.

Randy and Susan Landon said...

I am so sorry to hear about your sister. Our thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Scott and Analisa said...

I am so sorry you guys. That is so tuff. You are in our prayers.

our family said...

So sorry!! She was such a beautifu girl, our love and prayers are to your family in this hard time.

Jenny said...

Our Prayers have been with you guys since we heard the news. I only met her once but immediately I thought she was a doll with a glowing smile and I remember the girls love her to pieces!